i am usually a strong person..
my weak points? (or rather point… him)
now you can call me crazy, and you’ll get a nice thumbs up. yeah i’ve heard it before. you can call me hopeless, well honestly you couldn’t be any more wrong. i am hopeful. that is my whole problem.
i have this hope in my heart that he will be back. he will fall for me once again, pick me above it all… possibly. it could happen. it will happen.
now where i will lose it on you, is if you ever tell me it will not happen. that i should just give up. he made me believe again, and i am not ever letting that go… i don’t know how. she told me he loves someone else, and after all the shit you’ve put me through, it still hurt like hell and i regret it but i told her to shut the hell up and leave…
harsh yes… idk. when it comes to him, i get so riled up. call it love, call it lust, call it stupid, i dont give a fuck. but just don’t try and tell me there is no possibility for me and him in the future.
i don’t think i could handle it. i can’t handle it.
and if it is true?
don’t expect me coming back…
they always tell me, once you hit rock bottom there is no where to go but up…
but if i lost you… that’d be my absolute bottom. and i’d just keep falling, and willing myself out of existence…
i couldn’t… i wouldn’t…
it won’t happen.
but every second, brings me closer to the day you’ll be mine again.
i have to believe it, or sooner or later, all the bullshit in this world… will break me down to nothing…